Heading home...

After 4 long days in the hospital, I was ready to go home. I had been pumped with Magnesium Sulfate, Nifedipine, and Terbutaline until I felt as if I was going to go insane. Being stuck on bed rest, and having to use a bed pan to pee was the worst feeling in the world.

My contractions were letting up, and were back to normal braxton hicks again. My OBGYN came in to see me, and told me that they would be sending me home. He had written a prescription and told me to take it.

I finally left that dreaded hospital, knowing that I would be back here in a few short weeks to deliver. Next time I came, I was praying I'd be carrying my daughter in a car seat when I left... Not waddling out weakly, because of the multiple drugs the doctors shoved on me because of those contractions.

I went to the pharmacy to fill my prescription, and came to find out that my insurance didn't cover it! It was $79.95, and I only had $6.00 on me at the time. I had to call my mother, and ask her for the money. I was embarassed to ask her for money, to aid me in my pregnancy.. I created this child, why can't I be the sole provider of her? Leo and I... I wish we would have had the money. We drove to her work, and picked up the money from her. I picked up my prescription, and finally headed home...

We pulled into the driveway, and walked inside. I went into the bedroom, and laid down.

This is how it's going to be... for at least 3 weeks.

Moderate bed rest.. I had three options. Lay in bed, sit on couch, sit in bathtub.

I dont know how you can possibly be considered "on bed rest" if you are getting up every ten minutes to pee...

So, I laid in bed most of the day. I laid there, daydreaming of the day I would finally get to lay in bed with my little girl in my arms, instead of my tummy...