Thursday, April 30, 2009

My parents find out.

I was 32 weeks pregnant.. It was November 23, 2008.

My mom had one night off of work early. I didn't know why she was off so early, this was so... weird. I heard a knock on my door, and it was swiftly opened. My mom came to talk to me.

She asked me to come give her a hug, but instead of a warming hug from my mother, I got a full-on, tight belly-grab.

The look.

The look she gave me pierced through my soul. Her eyes told me the story that I was so afraid to tell her. I was pregnant, and I must be pretty far along, because I'm big. Dragging me by the arm, she takes me into her room. She sits onto the bed, and... the look. Staring at me said it all.

"Are you pregnant?"

"No... I dont think I am"

"KATIE. Tell me the truth. ARE YOU PREGNANT?"

"NO! I dont think I am!"

We start talking and she gives me the money for a pregnancy test. Leo and I head up to WalGreens. We KNEW the results already, but... it was easier. I didn't want her to know that I'd been hiding a pregnancy from her for 24 weeks...
The cashier looks at me like I'm nuts. I could see what she wouldn't say aloud. "You're that big, and just now taking a pregnancy test? You must be an idiot..."

We leave to go home.. We walk inside.. Leo zombie-walks to my bedroom, wanting no part of the 'testing process' and my mother finding out. I walk into her bedroom, "I got it."
"Have you taken it yet?"
"No, I'm afraid to."
"Go do it, and come see me."

I walk into my restroom. Ah, this is all too familiar to me. I slide my pants down, put the pee stick beneath me...

I place the stick on the counter, and finish up. Of course, it's positive. What did I expect? It to be negative or something?...

I take my time, wash my hands. Dry them completely. I creep down the hallway... Open her bedroom door. "So...?"
"It's positive." - I chuck the test at her.

"We're gonna make it through this, you, Leo, and I. We will."

1 comment:

  1. your story is amazing. i'm dying to know more about your birth parents/brother story! can't wait to read your next entry :)

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